Grieving

Grieving can apply to so much more than a death. You can grieve over all types of losses: friends, jobs, and even missed opportunities. You can even grieve over what might have been. There is no hard and fast rule on how to deal with a loss. Some deal with it immediately, and others push it away for another day. Grief can take years before it subsides, or after a long, hard cry it can be replaced by peace.

Tonight, it just hit me. I don't know what happened except I read something that brought it all crashing in on me. It feels like a loss so overwhelming I can't recover. A hole is left that I know from experience will never be filled. All I can hope for it that in time the grief will give way to some peace and I will be able to move forward knowing that this loss was unavoidable. I can also hope that at some point God will take it all and make some sense of the "whys". But for now, the grief pushes in on my heart,

And you begin again,
Sometimes you lose,
Sometimes you win,
But you begin again.
Even though your heart is breaking
In time, the sun will shine
And you'll begin again.
You'll begin again.

Hoping that "in time the sun will shine",
Walden Fan