My Heart is Broken and My Spirit is Grieved

On September 10, 2025, evil reared its ugly head at a college campus in Utah. Charlie Kirk, a conservative debater and Christian, was murdered by an assassin. I was at a baseball game and my son sent me a text, "Hannity says Charlie Kirk didn't make it." My heart dropped. I texted back and asked him what happened, and he told me he was shot during a campus event and killed. I can't describe what I felt at that moment except to say I was shattered.

I'm writing this, primarily for myself. I have cried. I have mourned. I have prayed. I have watched hours and hours of his videos, and I cried some more. I didn't know him. But he was a fellow Christian--more than that, he was an evangelist who shared the gospel with courage and commitment. I have followed him for years and admired his boldness in sharing his faith and willingness to stand up for the same morals and beliefs I hold dear.

As the days have passed, God has convicted me and asked me if I could be as bold as Charlie. Would I be willing to share what I believe, knowing it could cost me everything? Sadly, before September 10, I had not been bold or even willing. I feared I might lose friends. I worried I might lose customers. I rationalized that I had to stay neutral. Not anymore.

I've been immersed in social media posts from people who have been convicted, as I have. They have reclaimed their faith, taken their families to church for the first time, purchased a Bible for the first time, accepted Christ, and been baptized. Was it Charlie's sudden death that caused them to feel this way? Yes and no. 

There's been a shift in the spirit world, and God is moving, using Charlie's death as a moment in time to draw those to him. People who have never heard of Charlie Kirk are watching his videos online, listening to his testimony, and seeing how he lived for God, and seeking the God of his faith. 

There will be before September 10th and after September 10th. The youth of this country have been awakened. The Christians have been revived. The unbelievers are being drawn toward Jesus. 

Charlie Kirk was a martyr in all respects. He died speaking the truth of the gospel of Jesus Christ. His death will not be in vain. God is, and will continue, to use it to His glory.

John 12:24 says, "I assure you and most solemnly say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone (just one grain, never more). But if it dies, it produces much grain and yields a harvest."

Looking toward the harvest of souls!